A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem.
The state of being regarded with honor or esteem.
Willingness to show consideration or appreciation.
to me respect is one of, if not the most significant attribute a person can have. if you can not respect yourself, then how can you respect others. it is defiantly something that is earned, and once someone has done something to disrespect me, it is very hard to get that respect back. i think that may have a lot to do with my demeanor and the fact that not a whole lot bothers me. i try and respect everyone and expect the same in return. unfortunately that changed this weekend for some people whom i thought were my friends. i lost respect for some of them.
i think the crutch ‘well i was drunk’ has been played and i am tired of it. we are all grown ass adults, and should be able to handle the alcohol we consume, and know how to act. if you use the drunk crutch more than you should, maybe you should curb your drinking. the shit that was more acceptable when in college, does not fly with me today. and i am not saying that i am any better than anyone else, because i know i have done my fair share of stupid shit after i had been drinking, but i have never done anything to hurt the feelings of the people close to me.
i spent the majority of sunday thinking about how i was disrespected this weekend. and i tried to understand how the people that i have spent the majority of the past year with could say and do the things they did. i wanted to come up with a good reason for it, but i realized i am tired of trying to make excuses for people. no more excuses. what i realized was the lack of respect. respect me and i will do whatever it takes to maintain a good, healthy, relationship. disrespect me, well you will lose a great friend. and what did/will i lose from this? maybe some great friends, but if they did this to me once, what would stop them from doing it again?
details of what happened this weekend, are irrelevant at this point, and something i never want to bring up again. so if i seem distant, then maybe you are the part of the problem and need to be part of the solution. i may forgive, but i will never forget.
you hurt my feelings. i have since pulled the knife out of my back. the wound will heal, but the scar will always be there.