dearest you,
overexposure, or underdevelopment? trying not to dwell on the negatives. this film is lost in all but the darkest dark rooms it calls home. still your paranoid, sifting through polaroids. you know its the pictures that you dont remember that make you who you are.
it speaks way more than i could ever.
lost in the dark…
-b
i should warn you
i go to sleep
i know you don’t
know what i mean
yet
i get upset or happy
i go to sleep
nothing hurts when
i go to sleep
but i’m not tired
i’m not tired
i know it seems that i don’t care
but something in me does i swear
i don’t remember all last year
i left you awake to cry the tears
while i was dreaming in streams
flowing between the shores
of joy and sadness
i’m drowning
save me
wake me up
i should warn you
i go to sleep
you won’t know when i go to sleep
because i’m not tired
i’m not tired
i just sleep
one of my friends is opening for The Great Divide this weekend here in austin and i just found their first cd. this cd brings back so many great memories. i can remember the first time i ever heard this band. i had been out drinking with my friends and i came home late and i turned on my tv like i do everynite and i was flipping through the channels. i came across cmt and “pour me a vacation” was on. i can honestly remember thinking man i need to stay up and pay attention to see who this is. so at the end of the song i scribbled down pour me a vacation on a scratch piece of paper in my drunken stupor. of course the next morning i woke up and couldnt remember why i wrote that down. then like a ton of bricks it hit me and i got dressed and went to hastings to buy the cd.
for the next several weeks that cd didnt leave my player. this was when i was working in hillsboro and driving back and forth all the time. i would roll down my windows, hit i-35 and just cruise to this cd. it made the miles disappear. i could remember telling carrie and yyvone all about this cd and they went out and bought it the following day. the three of us along with mackaly and chet would go and get some beer and find some back country road and just listen to this cd over and over again. i can remember taking a lunch break with all of them and going and getting a six pack, just to listen to this cd and then going back to work. its kinda weird, every other song is just incredible. the words speak so much truth.
rediscovering a cd is a great thing. those memories had been buried under so many other things and i am glad they have resurfaced. i wonder how all those people that i used to be so close with are doing these days. i am smiling ear to ear just thinking about all those great days when things were so much easier and things didnt matter as much.
